Yesterday the final script for me was my eyes batting off sleep as my head was a bit achy from the weekly overload.
Some days my head gets so full that it literally feels like built up pressure. I look in the mirror waiting for the stem to spit out of my ears.
But it never does.
At moments, I want to be able to tilt my head over and shake some of the memos, thoughts, to-dos, expectations out of my head.
Still, it does not work.
Maybe my brain will become so full that it’ll start oozing out my ears. Tragic I am sure. But the pressure will be released.
Debunked. Only in my craziest imagination.
This week I gave myself a break from some things that have become tedious and tasked for this season.
Besides some scribbled in appointments and a very rough check list, the pages of my planner stayed blank. Its wonderful to have this tool in this season. But it is just that, a tool, necessary for sanity. Im not the cutesy planner chick. Im the spur-of-the-moment afraid-of-committing-free-flowing kind of girl.
I gave myself permission not to plan out my days to a T this week.
I’ll admit it…I wore the same outfits a couple times this week. Outfit planning did not take my time. I looked nice, not like I slept in a stable or anything.
I gave myself permission to be simple.
Seeing that the surf was going to be above par, I set the alarm the night before for early o’clock. I woke reluctantly but soon excitement stirred. The sunrise was breath-taking. Absolutely worth waking to see the rays kissing the waves. A friend and I hung in the water until the world woke up.
I gave myself permission to be spontaneous and do something I love.
I know this will not be my new norm. My planner will be full of colorful markings and check lists. Not all mornings will allow a spontaneous sunrise surf.
But I am still gleaning from a valuable perspective because I gave myself permission to do some things a bit differently this week.
I can appreciate certain disciplines more. Some disciplines even have become second nature. I saw where adjustments need to be made to take care of myself better.
Maybe your soul could use the break from a couple of tasks in your life.
Are you willing to give yourself permission to step away for a couple days from the to-do list, the planning, or whatever may be needing to air out a bit?
This is not time to have this big introspective ahh ha moment. It is literally permission for a break. The ahh ha moment may come and it may not, but do not force it.
Just break for fall.