I am not self made. I am uniquely designed, one of a kind.
I am who I am.
Moving from glory to glory. Oh please, Amen! Amen!
I want to smell of Love and for that there is a cost.
I will gladly take the purging by fire. Bring it on! For I was built to withstand!
I will emerge even brighter, ever purer.
I am who I am because he is the great I am.
I am not self made, he brought me forth as his.
Breathed life into these working limbs. Dreams knitted in this beating heart.
I am because he is I AM.
Traveling sometimes makes writing a bigger challenge. I find that I do more thinking and less writing. The writing comes after the journey.
The traveling is more about the experience. But it is good to get sweet small moments to write in the midst of the travels.
The first part of my journey had a few of these small moments. These were rich moments but simple. I truly believe we need those moments to refresh our souls from the hustle.
Here is a prayer I jotted down one morning. I modified it just for you in case it would be a place in which you may let out a sigh and take a small moment to reflect and refresh.
Maybe you feel like there is not enough to go around. You are worn and feel like your basket is empty. Or maybe you are scared, scared you have nothing to give. Possibly your hungry, starving even, for more than just crumbs.
He is not a frugal God. May your heart be pleasantly surprised this weekend.
Bring me up, Lord, to where you are calling. Put a song in me to sing. A harmony so sweet, where you and I can meet.
Grant me today my daily bread. Let me not forget to feed the hungry and those in need. You will supply me for the day for my needs, and the needs of others. Help me to give away what you have entrusted to me. Show me the truly hungry. And teach me to give how you gave. When you gave and all was said and done there was more than enough.
May it still be true of you through me.
Black Balsam’s Knob- Pisgah Forest
Did you know that solitude has been considered a spiritual discipline for quite some time now?
And to think most of us consider solitude to be a priced possession. One minute without the kids at your heels. A whole hour when the phone is not ringing with business. An uninterrupted lunch break. You name it and claim those in between moments.
I’ve been hiding away for the past few days. I was uneasy about making this trip alone. I was torn because I was desiring some companionship. Not only desiring it but feeling like it may be something I was needing.
However I was craving adventure, the kind that I semi plan and semi just fall into. Needless to say, much of my time has been spent in solitude.
I’ve been watching Holy Spirit fill gaps that need filling and leaving space for some breathing room.
What I’ve found is solitude feeds the discipline of prayer. Prayer being both listening and speaking.
Solitude enhances my hearing. And hearing makes me hungry for more.
It’s hard to fit solitude into our busy fast paced culture.
I believe there is a gate to solitude that many people never make it in through, even though they set out to.
At the gate of solitude there are travelers’ packs, weapons, walking sticks, and even some shoes. At the gate of solitude we are invited to take off our armor and for the brave, our self-sufficiency. Many turn and walk away clinging to their possessions broken-hearted they could not enter without them. It’s a shedding of pride and defensiveness at the gate. But for those who leave their belongings, accepting the invitation to enter, they themselves are sending out their own invitation. “Come do what you want to do. Here I am. Listening. Waiting.”
These waters are unstable, roughly unpredictable.
A keen eye should be kept to the bow.
Hand clenched on the side of the wooden vessel,
for a moment i take in its grain, its make.
Been in such waters before.
Her sail let loose in a slap,
took more than one pair to wrestle that white.
Even now something unexpected begins to stir.
Out in the distance a figure,
a man. My heart least expects,
Kind eyes I see, in the midst of violent waves.
Smiling soft lips move to his calm words.
I’m drawn, compelled.
Calm down oh soul, what if
its not him. Yet he waits.
Welcoming me to join him among the shifting waters.
Tides and waves, boats and sails;
what are you compared to this love.
No mind do I give you,
for you are nothing compared to.
Rise I do. Hand free of wooden barricade.
Look these feet walk over too. It is He I see.
Yet what if these eyes deceive me.
The wet I feel all around me.
Rough hands to which I do cling.
Oh yes it is surely he.
Lovingly he raises me,
and together we dry in the hull.
You know my struggles in lone oneness.
You know my desires both holy and detracting.
Save me oh Lord, speak tenderly to my soul.
In need of some relief from the ebbing ache within.
Do not let me merely brush away rather help me stay.
Stay with you, I am seen. You fill all in All.
Stay, with my heart in gentle hands. It’s bled much, beats ever strong.
Credit to Grace to remain loving, and Mercy for covering my wandering.
Be true Father for this little growing girl needs you.
Direct and reveal, sure. Above all keep me sitting, enjoying daily bread before me.
Peace of yours be mine, it is thine daughter’s inheritance.
Joy and Gratitude abounding at the table with you.
Speak dearly Lord Jesus, I will lean in to hear the only purely beating heart.